God's Providence

I’m baaack.

I had to take a two-day leave from my blog to deal with a personal life issue about which no one in my family or group of friends need worry. Things are headed back into a normal direction.

When I started this blog, my goal was to see how God impacted my life on a daily basis. I found, ironically, that it is very easy to take God for granted when things in my life are peachy keen. I say my daily prayers, and then attend to everyday business.

But when things are not going quite so well, I really can see God’s hand in my life. I found myself in almost constant prayer. The things happening around me were completely outside of my control. The only thing I had control of were my daily activities.

Of course, that didn’t stop me from almost constant obsession and worry. My husband pointed out to me that while I keep a note on my bathroom mirror that says, “Worry about nothing; pray about everything” I was in permanent worry mode. Easier said than done.

I’m not sure what people do when they have a problem but don’t believe in God. Frankly, while my husband is a constant support system, he is unable to solve many problems that come up in my life. He can repair things that break, but when it’s my personal life that is in an uproar, there’s not a lot he can do. So, it’s God to whom I turn.

I really tried (and marginally succeeded) to turn this problem over to God. And I am able to see God’s hand in how things are playing out.

I went to Mass yesterday and God spoke to me through John’s gospel. In the gospel, Jesus is teaching in the temple, and tells those doubters who were listening to Him that He is testifying on behalf of His Father. “You belong to what is below. I belong to what is above.” Hmmm, I thought. I am concentrating on what is happening here to me and not letting God help. Jesus went on to say, “The one who sent me is with me. He has not left me alone, because I always do what is pleasing to him.”

Those words of Jesus reminded me that God is not leaving me alone with my problem. He is with me when things are good and bad. I can count on that fact.